7:15am amending the entry below

so why was I writing about this really, umm, dignified woman?

'cause there's something else I want to write about but don't want to jinx.

that's what I do when things are about to happen.

delay it a bit. not really talk about it 'til stuff happens. 'cause if I do talk about, I have this irrational logic that I'll jinx it and ruin things. and it won't happen.

there's that.

things are happening. again. or they should.

ah.

7:20am

I spent 5 minutes trying to look for a word that was at the tip of my tongue. alas, a place that even google can't search.