Miss Direction

Not knowing is the worst possible feeling in the world.

Right now. I sort of vaguely know. so it's not that bad.

It's ambiguous. kind of foggy. but unnoticeable. 'cause I'm going through the motions and I'm distracted. focusing in the wrong place.

running while looking at my shoe laces. I don't see the brick wall in front of me. I can sense it.

it's coming towards me. about to hug me. tough love? I'll learn from it. to look up a bit more.

there's not knowing. there's knowing that I don't know. then there's knowing. and maybe some more steps in between.

right now. I know I don't know. or in other key-strokes, I mean, I know what I'm supposed to be doing, but I can't find the motivation to do it.

so I'm human. so what? I need some motivation here. it's running on E. internal motivation would be best.

I'll need the external to trigger what's inside me. 'cause it's hibernating. and it's time to look up. and hurdle over the brick wall.